Busy Day

Yesterday I saw the oncologist. She is amazed at how well I am doing since I completed the radiation. I don't know how long it will last but I'll take whatever it wants to give me!

I was charging along today until I checked on the Pa. eagle who is busy sitting on 2 eggs. Wow, just as I clicked it open she got up long enough for baby #1 to wiggle out of the egg shell!  So cute, white and fuzzy. The Daddy brought some dead fish to celebrate..I could really do without that part but life is not all pretty.

I don't know how to post the link on here but it's Pennsylvania game commission. I'll be watching the rest of the day and night until #2 arrives.

Oh how I love to get surprise's from Amazon. The card reads, "Merry early Christmas, Mom...Dave. I guess my house cleaning is done for a few days!  I just know I'll want the rest of these books...heck, will these quilts ever get done?

I guess I better get the dinner made. That's the least I can do for son who always finds ways to make me smile!

Friendships...where do I begin

I've always known I was different, and not in a good way. I think it all starts with the mother. Not everyone has a mother who reads them a book, holds their hand when crossing a street, kisses them goodnight or finds anything good about them. The mind of a very young child is learning and in a case where the mother doesn't like her child it can form that child's entire life. I see now, looking back, that it left me blank.

I've looked at photo's taken and although the other kids were all smiling or laughing, I had a blank stare. Maybe that's why as I got older I didn't allow any photo's to be taken. Some where I lost my emotions. To this day I haven't cried over my son's death. The pain of it all is just too much and something I can't share.

Through the years I've usually had one friend at a time. When they got married that ended the friendship. I just couldn't figure out how I was suppose to add the husband. It was just to complicated so I backed away. Then there were those dreaded friendships that for some reason I had to end them. Those were hard. I couldn't tell myself why, I just knew it would be better to end them. Then along came the internet. So many happy people all talking to each other, laughing and sharing their life experiences.

A few years back I made a friend. We had a lot in common and for sometime we really enjoyed the friendship. Then something happened, to me, and I can't really explain  what it was. I remember telling myself, "Just one more time and this is over". One more time what? I can't explain what or why, I just knew I had to end it.

Dial forward to last year when I posted that I was sick. I did so thinking Cancer was a journey that people should take a ride with because so many families are hit with it and those can be terrible emotions. I thought my journey would help someone else. I think now it was my emotions that needed a place to go.

Instead of helping someone else out, the friend I booted from my life came along and lifted me up. There really are unselfish people in the world like this. Rita is a classy lady who hung in reading my blog and not holding me to my fast exit from what was a nice friendship.

Today Rita sent me a bit of spring. I spend a lot of time in my bedroom which is pink and white. I hung the wreath on the inside of my bedroom door so I can enjoy it all the time. Thank You Rita!  Thank You Lord for giving me this extra time to sort out my life and revisit the gems who I didn't appreciate. Forgive me for acting out in such a thoughtless way.

Sometimes you need to be naughty!

I've been dealing with 15 radiation treatments this past month. It was a lot harder then I expected it to be. The burns and blisters are just now leaving and finally I am able to stay awake for most of the day.

I needed something to do sitting down so I started working on ripping out the stitches of one of the last quilts I will be making. I don't know why I used dark purple to quilt it with but it's not for me! I've been snipping the back and snipping the front and picking the stitches out with a tweezers for weeks. It finally got to me today! I felt like ripping the quilt up and throwing it as far as my weak arms could manage.

Instead I put it aside for now. I only have 6 more blocks to do so maybe next week I can handle it again. I'll use white or a pastel to quilt it with this time. I looked at my friends quilt that she did with dark orange and I like it. I just didn't like mine.

It just put me in a rare mood that I wanted to do something naughty or not so nice....so I turned to the train platform to help out my naughty artistic feelings.  I started with a waterfall and lots of foam like waterfalls produce. Then I picked out several 2 inch people, sanded their clothing off and dabbed them with a little paint...he he he....naughty, naughty....I'm sure this has put me on Santa's list! But the people look like they are having fun...like the hot springs in Colo. that I used to enjoy when I lived there.  I need to add one more person laying on the rocks.  Mr. Man is wearing a brown bathing suit. I should have made it blue or green and maybe I'll do that if my hands are steady enough. My naughty people make me laugh!